In light of my recent reading and reviews, I thought this post from July of 2010 seemed "appropriate". I hope you can see the value here in baring (literally) my soul.
Before I get into this topic, let me give you a snapshot of who Nicole Petrino-Salter is with and without her flaws. Without my flaws I am a child of the King, a passionate Jesus-loving Christian. Apart from Him, I can do nothing. Period.
With my flaws I am a passionate Christian who spent 30 years in the world believing in God but not having a relationship with His Son. I didn’t get it. I don’t know if I ever truly heard the gospel until just before my conversion. Perhaps I did, but it fell on deaf ears. The fickle heart pursued an independence which led me astray from the values impressed upon me by God-fearing parents. I’m convinced my mother was a Christian when I was growing up, and my Dad was an excommunicated Catholic because he eloped with my mom who didn’t belong to the Catholic church. However, for many in the Catholic faith, once a Catholic, always a Catholic. Later, for sure, I know Mom solidified her salvation, and Dad became a Christian.
I’m a mature woman who grew up in tumultuous times for our nation. Drugs, sex, and rock ‘n’ roll came on the scene hard and fast and wore down even the “best” of us, and by best I simply mean those of us who clung to our understanding of morality. I planned to be a virgin on my wedding day. I didn’t plan to do drugs. I planned to be published, become an actress, and to get out of college after my first year. Out of all those “plans”, the only one that became a reality was getting out of college after my first year. In a way you now know me intimately.
So. What does that have to do with Christian publishing and sex? The decisions people make in their lives regarding something so personal, so intimate and invasive, as sexual conduct reveals an immense amount about who they are, who they perceive themselves to be, and who they will ultimately become.
Within the many responses to this discussion there is an occasional outrage and accusation concerning the inclusion of sexual content. If you’re reading secular/general market literature: get real. It’s all over it and should be expected. However, if you’re reading CBA literature, sexual content is minimal in spite of a dominant line of romance novels.
Let me stop right here and commend Francine Rivers and Lisa Samson for their insightful, daring, and profound novels Redeeming Love [and Bridge to Haven] and The Passion of Mary-Margaret, respectively. Sexual issues horrifically and tenderly addressed in both books. These two novels are love stories, not romance novels. No one will ever convince me otherwise. Love stories often include romance but their plotlines reach farther and provide epic revelation which exceeds the tight framework of romance novels.
I can say to you with humility but without shame, I am called to contrast the world’s views of sexual issues to God’s view of the same. I write love stories, heavy on the romance. Real romance. I have been on both sides of these issues. I know what it’s like to succumb to the worldview and live with regret. I know what it’s like to be a girl, then a woman who is not gorgeous with a beguiling build in a world where these things seem to be the measure of a female.
I know what it’s like to hear the comments of boys and men who revel in the body parts of females. I know what it’s like to watch girls and women use their bodies to entice, to tease, to woo, to control the reactions of boys and men. I know what it’s like to wish I could.
I know what lust feels like, how it can dominate, how it can overrun good sense and innocence. I know what it’s like to hold onto something so private and important only to release it and give it away because remembering why it’s valuable has lost its grip, its reality, its poignancy to the moment and time of life.
I wonder at Christian women who are appalled at novels that contain what they consider too much “sex” in CBA fiction. Um. Where? Please understand I mean no harm here. Graphic and/or explicit sex doesn’t exist to my knowledge in CBA fiction. I don’t write graphic sex, but my work does contain the physical connections, reactions between men and women. The lost are portrayed without judgment. The saved are portrayed with exuberance.
What is it about sex, that most intimate of actions designed by a loving God for the expression of love between husband and wife, that raises the rancor of some Christian women? Because the world perverts the act, makes it unseemly, makes it casual and meaningless much of the time, turns it into a weapon, a four-letter word, makes it a measure of a man’s prowess, a woman’s attraction . . . is it because sometimes some of us can’t quite get to the place where this sexual union is sacred? Have we sucked in the world’s aphrodisiac and are afraid we’re just as ugly, just as jaded as “they” are? If we enjoy sex too much as a female, are we no “better” than a promiscuous woman? If we don’t enjoy sex at all, are we more “righteous”?
The accusations fly about not writing to cause a reader to stumble. And sex is the hot-button issue we use to entice our readers to sin? Does that mean to portray it without graphics is sinful? Heck, is sex sinful?!
Women have many obstacles to overcome with sexual issues. Some of us have to fight through the regret, the pain of feeling insufficient, the hormonal conditions which leave us vacant and hollow in the sexual drive department. There are so many valid reasons to be uptight about sex. The problem is they’re mostly unhealthy. Mentally and emotionally, physically and spiritually. God didn’t design sex just for men. No, he really didn’t.
I’m going to stop here—I’ve gone plenty long. Please, please, don’t let this post offend you. Please.
Lord, we get all tied up in falsehoods and misconceptions. Help us to live truly free in you. In the Name of Jesus, Amen.